living without power-days 4-7
Learned a bowl of water resting on the removable grill burner of the stove above four candles can heat and cook. Amazing. Being without power is can be more than a pyhsical thing. It manifest into mental where in which you can lose yourself. If one is not careful the reign ofpower can easily be placed in the hands of another. Even without poweryou must control your own destiny. Don't sell yourself or your items short just so the light will shine for you again. Bad doesn't last forever. At least that's what they say.
living without power-day3
The power eludes me. I have none and am not the controller of anthing beyond my attitude. I will not be broken. Eventually God will remember us and come to our rescue. It is all resting in His hands. I just wish He would stop playing hand games so I can get back to the act of living in the real world.
living without power-day2
Okay, so this really sucks. Been here and done this before and it still sucks. Tried to get help before power diminished and was told since I worked from home I couldn't get any help. It is considered a business and they don't help businesses. What a crock.
Woke up very early and couldn't see the light. Both literally and figuratively. Where is my light?
Woke up very early and couldn't see the light. Both literally and figuratively. Where is my light?
living without power-day 1
In all heartfelt sanity I have to say God sucks. With all of the supposed power He possess He fails consistently when it comes to proving himself to me. It is said we are to 'test' Him. assiming this means to believe Him. I'm finding this extremely hard to do when I follow His word and yet everything keeps falling apart. What the shot in hell?
It always seems as if the nonbeliever walks around with his little bucket over flowing with treasure while stuck a hole in my bucket the size of Texas. What the shit in hell! Gotta go. Have to take the battery outta my cell before it dies.
It always seems as if the nonbeliever walks around with his little bucket over flowing with treasure while stuck a hole in my bucket the size of Texas. What the shit in hell! Gotta go. Have to take the battery outta my cell before it dies.
The Gap is Small
Nothing that improves finances has changed. So many new ideas explored and implemented and yet things remain the same. And a little worse. I would cry, but then I would be really sad.
Blind Change
I don't know when it happened. Hadn't been aware of it happening and nearly missed it. Gradually and inexplicably my blinding belief has begun disappearing. I guess it started at the loss of the home I loved so much and not being able to afford another of my own. Hurricanes can be such a damper on one's lifestyle. Maybe it began when I stopped listening to my favorite christian bands on my Ipod. I blame the trauma of the big delete.
I only know that where I used to run to God's Words as comfort, I now feel doubt and I guess a bit of anger. Now when I read words of praise, or hear songs doing the same I change songs, close blogs....move on. Its like an unconscious knee jerk reaction. I don't even think about it. Sometimes I'm able to catch myself and I stand still.My faith is still there. I know deep in my heart God could change things in a minute. I know this because everything I had home, business, income is now gone. I wish something good would happen soon.
I only know that where I used to run to God's Words as comfort, I now feel doubt and I guess a bit of anger. Now when I read words of praise, or hear songs doing the same I change songs, close blogs....move on. Its like an unconscious knee jerk reaction. I don't even think about it. Sometimes I'm able to catch myself and I stand still.My faith is still there. I know deep in my heart God could change things in a minute. I know this because everything I had home, business, income is now gone. I wish something good would happen soon.
Lamenting
Lord, can I please have a break. Don't just shine your blessings of a sunny day just on the land of the Earth. Would you please, please give me a break and show me some favor. What good is life when nothing good happens in life? What good is life when all around me are falling ill and funds have been depleted and You are not helping to pull me out of the hole. You, better than I know I can't help myself. I feel as if I have stepped out of the boat in to neck high waters and You have forgotten my name. I am tired, Lord.
Will You please look my way and remember me because I am trying hard to hold on to Your hand and remember You are there. I need a break.
Will You please look my way and remember me because I am trying hard to hold on to Your hand and remember You are there. I need a break.
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